I've been kinda depressed lately and I don't know why.. Music is life to me.. And now that doesn't even seem interesting anymore.. I used o be able to play my guitar for hours and hours but know I play it for five minutes and it gets tiresome.. Nothing entertains me anymore!! I go outside for some fresh air and that doesn't amuse me.. I don't know whats wrong with me.. I'm depressed about something but I don't know what it is..
Another thing is freedom.. My dad keeps bitching at me about his saying that he loves to overuse which is "I give you an inch and you take a mile".. I know what it means but so what.. He lets me get my ear pierced and he gets mad at me for gaging to a 10.. A freaking 10!! most of you know how big a 10 is and it's not that big..
My dad keeps telling me that I'm turning into this demonic punk that's going to be homeless when I'm older.. He doesn't believe in my music when I know for a fact that I'm going to make it big.. Maybe if he gets off his ass and support me I might make it faster..
Another thing.. I want to dye my hair black.. My mom says that if I do it then It would disgracing God or something because I'm screwing with his creation.. When she dyes her hair all the time into black, brown, blond, red, and other colors that "look natural"..
I don't know why I'm so depressed but I don't like it
an I want to get out of it
Thursday, January 22, 2009
rotfflmfaoaidkwtdwtmbc
rolling on the fucking floor laughing my fucking ass off and I don't know what to do when the muffin bunnies come!! xD Ohk so its 7:00 in the morning and I'm at school I'm bored as hell.. I've started painting my nails black.. There's this really hot girl that has been coming to the media about the same time as me in the morning ha ha we've started talking but she's really shy.. =P well this was a short blog but i really need to do my math homework.................
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Muffin Fuck!
Ohk is it me or does no one understand?! My parents think im turning demonic cause i wanna dye my hair black and my ears are gauge 10.. Ohk this is what pisses me off the most.. I guess i have some sort of problems.. I go to a guidance counselor and they tell me that I'm unhappy cause I don't have A's in school.. I've talked to everyone even my closest friends and they all say the same exact thing.. "I understand".. .................What the fuck are you talking about!!!!!! you don't understand at all.. I know for a fact that you don't understand because I don't even understand!!
My life is being overrun by politics, authority, religion, and the school system.. Everyone thinks I'm a freak because I wear black nail polish and skinny jeans.. I put all my emotions in my music hoping that someone will hear it and actually understand what going on.. but i put it out and people hear it and they completely misunderstand where it's coming from and what it means!!
I don't know what to do anymore.........I just want to fall down close my eyes and wish that when I open them that everything will be alright..
I finally meet a girl (over a three day weekend) that I like and I'm pretty sure she liked me too.. And she has to live in Canada......... Fucking Canada
Life hates me
It will bend me backwards
and screw me over
it has been for the past 10 years
and it will keep going
unless
I can
find
a way
to stop
it
=/
please tell me there is someone out there that understand why I'm here
My life is being overrun by politics, authority, religion, and the school system.. Everyone thinks I'm a freak because I wear black nail polish and skinny jeans.. I put all my emotions in my music hoping that someone will hear it and actually understand what going on.. but i put it out and people hear it and they completely misunderstand where it's coming from and what it means!!
I don't know what to do anymore.........I just want to fall down close my eyes and wish that when I open them that everything will be alright..
I finally meet a girl (over a three day weekend) that I like and I'm pretty sure she liked me too.. And she has to live in Canada......... Fucking Canada
Life hates me
It will bend me backwards
and screw me over
it has been for the past 10 years
and it will keep going
unless
I can
find
a way
to stop
it
=/
please tell me there is someone out there that understand why I'm here
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Life Theory
I have this theory.. Life is fragile (but insensative) ball of thread and there is many things that can happen to thread..
Thing1:You screw up.. Now sometimes when you screw up you can fix it, but like a ball of thread you can never roll up the string the same way it was.. So really I'm saying that you can fix it but it will never be the same..
Thing 2:You screw up and can't fix it.. The metaphore for this would be that the thread itself (not the ball) has come unraveled.. WTF are you supposed to do?? Nothing.. You can't do anything.. And it sucks
Thing 3:You aren't pleased with the ball of thread (life) so you decide to cut it off somewhere with scissors (which is also called taking the easy way out {cheating}).. Congrats you just screwed up.. There is no way now how you can get back that part of thread you cut off.. Another way of saying this is for guys (if you cut off your testicals you can't have kids.. EVER!)
Thing4:Your tired of unraveling and raveling the thread ball.. So you just get so frustrated that you throw it down an endless pit (giving up on everything eg. life, and love).. It keeps unraveling no matter what you do you can't stop it (this is where your homeless a druggy and considered nothing to society)..
Thing5:You don't get why life is so empty and useless.. you wish people would understand where your coming from.. The truth is.......no one does and no one ever will.. This is the part of the ball of thread where you take a big stake and push it slowly and gently in the middle or hard and quickely in the middle.. (known as suicide)
Life sucks..
IT CAN AND WILL SCREW YOU OVER!!
so take it or leave it..
Thing1:You screw up.. Now sometimes when you screw up you can fix it, but like a ball of thread you can never roll up the string the same way it was.. So really I'm saying that you can fix it but it will never be the same..
Thing 2:You screw up and can't fix it.. The metaphore for this would be that the thread itself (not the ball) has come unraveled.. WTF are you supposed to do?? Nothing.. You can't do anything.. And it sucks
Thing 3:You aren't pleased with the ball of thread (life) so you decide to cut it off somewhere with scissors (which is also called taking the easy way out {cheating}).. Congrats you just screwed up.. There is no way now how you can get back that part of thread you cut off.. Another way of saying this is for guys (if you cut off your testicals you can't have kids.. EVER!)
Thing4:Your tired of unraveling and raveling the thread ball.. So you just get so frustrated that you throw it down an endless pit (giving up on everything eg. life, and love).. It keeps unraveling no matter what you do you can't stop it (this is where your homeless a druggy and considered nothing to society)..
Thing5:You don't get why life is so empty and useless.. you wish people would understand where your coming from.. The truth is.......no one does and no one ever will.. This is the part of the ball of thread where you take a big stake and push it slowly and gently in the middle or hard and quickely in the middle.. (known as suicide)
Life sucks..
IT CAN AND WILL SCREW YOU OVER!!
so take it or leave it..
Music.
Music.. Pretty much my whole life is based around it.. Without it I probably wouldn't be here, because nothing would keep me entertained from the boring isolation of school, which then would result with me killing my self for entertainment or having sex left and right with random people I've never met o.O.......... which would lead to constant STD's (or STI's whatever the freaking CDC calls them) which would also result in death.......... So ya I love music.. Okay I love ranting on about random stuff but seeing this is a blog about music I'm going to state the pro's and con's of it..
Some music is good and I could hear it over and over again.. The only problem is after you hear it for so long you begin to think that it's kind of stupid.. Some music is god and some is bad.. Generally it's an opinion but I don't care.. I've never taken a good liking for rap, hip-hop, R&B, and all the other music like that.. No offense to my "Home G's" out there but I don't like listening to wannabe singer put a beat into a monotone story..
Okay.. Next I'm going to rant on bout the apparel that come with music.. Clothing is optional!! No where does it say that if you like Bob Marley then you have to have dreads or if you like Hawthorne Hights then you have to wear skinny jeans with converse.. Now if you want people to know who you like and what music your into then you can dress accordingly but it's not required..
Well I'm going to go get ready for school
PEACe
Blog saved and posted Tuesday, January 20th, 7:50 AM
Some music is good and I could hear it over and over again.. The only problem is after you hear it for so long you begin to think that it's kind of stupid.. Some music is god and some is bad.. Generally it's an opinion but I don't care.. I've never taken a good liking for rap, hip-hop, R&B, and all the other music like that.. No offense to my "Home G's" out there but I don't like listening to wannabe singer put a beat into a monotone story..
Okay.. Next I'm going to rant on bout the apparel that come with music.. Clothing is optional!! No where does it say that if you like Bob Marley then you have to have dreads or if you like Hawthorne Hights then you have to wear skinny jeans with converse.. Now if you want people to know who you like and what music your into then you can dress accordingly but it's not required..
Well I'm going to go get ready for school
PEACe
Blog saved and posted Tuesday, January 20th, 7:50 AM
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