HA Ha LMFao

So I just got back from getting a referral.....for leaving class 30 seconds....early.. DUMB ASS!! GOD FUCKING DAMMIT!! Oh well.. this sucks.. so I'm listening to Fallbrooke in 3rd period computers.. nice.. I'm just now starting to realize about what they say about when you get older time goes by faster is true.. =[ so I'm sitting on the sidelines this whole time and realizing that the past 2 years were wasted.. I'm only going to get this time once I need to have fun while i can.. I need to have fun before I have to start worrying about money and all that shit.. I'm looking at all my friends and same things happening to them they just haven't realized it yet.. I'm 15 and I haven't actually been to a real party that has people i don't even know in it yet.. I need to get my ass out there... this is it.. I'm going to start a band. I'm going to get a girlfriend. I'm going to be somebody. I'm going to have fun. I'm going to make mistakes. I don't care. xD . Like everyone says Life is too short to think about the consequences! GOD HELP ME. I'M GOING TO PARTY OR FUCKING DIE TRYING!!

Her

Ohk so it's Thursday April 26 2009 at 8:11 AM and I'm at James. W. Mitchell High School. xD
So that one girl I've been talking about for the past few weeks.. I've been getting closer to her.. We're becoming more friends and I just gave her a surprise xD I can't tell yew because I don't want her to read this be all like OMG yew like me. so ya.. For some odd reason when I'm around her everything feels right and I just can't get over the feeling I get everytime I see her and I hear her voice.. Whenever I hold her it feels like forever and that my world is falling apart cause I know I can't be wih her, but at the same time everything falls into place like it's right.. it just feels right..



I'm very bored and I still haven't done my homework.. I'll just copy off my friend before class..
Ya well school will start soon so..
PEACe

Simplicity =)

Ohk ... spring break a great time for me

I feel like I actually found out more about 

who I am..

It feels like I had this facade on that I ripped off

I'm tired of trying to be someone else

I'm done =)

Cliques or trends will no longer control me 

I'm gunna be who I  wanna be..

Ohk so off that topic and onto another

of course it music...my music

I've started writing a song thats called

"Yew Break Hearts Like It's Your Job"

It's pretty much about the usual

heartbreak...duh!

which leads me to

another song I'm working on...(since 7th grade)

is called "Heartbreak in Hampton"

which is about a guy that leaves home to

go to Hampton, Virginia for a better opportunities

He leaves his girlfriend back home but meets another girl in hampton

he knows he cant be with her

ouch that sucks well school 

should start soon so bye

 PEACe

YESH!!!!

Ohk this week has been on and off good and bad for me.. so Battle of the Bands didn't go so well for me on Tuesday.. Oh well.. I met this really cool girl in my 4th period gym class =).. Her name is Lexie and she is so gorgeous and I enjoy talking to her, she has a really good personality.. well another good thing was that the Talent Show was fucking amazing.. I got up on stage and they loved it xD.. I got the crowd to clap and everything.. I'm so proud of myself.. It was the biggest crowd I have played for yet.. About..........400 people.. I didn't win but I still had a great time.. I know probably most of yew guys are thinking wow what a dork but whatever makes yew happy xD.. Well till next time!

Is it mee...

...or is life getting weirder.. Ohk so I just broke up with my ex-girlfriend a couple days ago.. Now this girl that I haven't liked since the beginning of second quarter is seeming to become more and more attractive to me.. There's another problem.. A girl in my 5th period likes me and I think she's cute and all but I like this other girl.. I don't think this other girl likes me back but...maybe..


Ohk another thing that is getting weirder is my parental situation.. My grades need to go up badly and I'm trying everything in my power to get them up but for some reason they won't go up.. If I don't get them up then My mom will get the courts involved and make me move to Orlando.. I've already told her that if see makes me move over there she will practically kill me.. I WILL run away, I WILL give-up in school, I WILL deny her being my mother because what she doesn't know is that my whole entire life is over here.. My friends, my memories, my everything is over here.. She probably wouldn't even care if I committed suicide if I moved over there.. As long as she can rub it in my dad's face that she got me to live with her she would be content....even if my body is rotting six feet under..


To push on a happier note.. My newest three songs "Love is a Lie With a Purpose", "Stars Seem a Whole Lot Darker Tonight", and "Queen of Hearts" are amazing.. LisLWaP probably has to be the best song I have written yet.. SSaWLDT is probably my deepest song I have ever written.. And Queen of Hearts has to be most rebellious song I've ever written.. I still Have to record "No Time for Tacos" and "This is Our Song" before I get to record any of the other three.. I really think my music career will lift off soon.. I have to go back to class so



PEACe

New Songs "LisLWaP" and "SSaWLDWH"

Ohk so I wrote two new songs.. One is called "Love is a Lie With a Purpose" and the other one is called "Stars Seem a Whole Lot Darker Without Her".. "LiaLWaP" (Love is a Lie With a Purpose) is about this one girl that pretends she likes this guy.. Then the guy walks in on her making out with another guy.. Then it talks about her trying to explain.. After that it shows how she says "walk out that door and you'll never see me again".. The guy being the badass he is walks out and slams the door.. It's a really "In your face" type of song.. If yew must label it then it's probably a mix between Taking Back Sunday and Hit the Lights..


"SSaWLDWH" ( Stars Seem a Whole Lot Darker Without Her) has a interesting story behind it.. SO here we are taking FCAT's and I finished early so i decided to start writing a song in the testing book.. During break I asked the Proctor if she could wright it on a piece of paper for me since I wasn't aloud to have scrap paper.. She said "no" because since I wrote it in the book it was considered testing material and would be illegal and would be considered cheating.. So during the next session I wrote it on the desk and just wrote it on paper after the test..


Anywho "SSaWLDW" is about a guy that decides to go out to party on a Saturday.. Harmless right?? Ohk so he meets this girl when he was completely wasted and they talked, made out, made love, whatever.. buuut he wakes up the next morning and it sings about how he tries to remember her name but he can't.. It doesn't mention it in the song but by the second verse yew can tell that they meet up again somehow.. After that it talks about how he'll never be the same without her in his life.. It's just a basic love song but the words and meanings are so much more.. Like for example I get really deep when I mention in the first verse "He can't quite remember the taste of her lips but the feelings he felt he'll never forget".. I don't want to get into to much detail with the lyrics because I haven't copy wrote the song yet but trust me it's a good songs =][=


School will start soon so

PEACe

In Conclusion...

The reason Lexie wanted me to wear my SKSK shirt was because she was wearing the same shirt too.... HOORAY FOR UNIFORMITY!!!!! Ohk I'm done.. So Battle of the Bands is coming up on March 31st.. Me and Theo are doing 4 of my songs..  Even though me and Theo aren't in  a band together for some reason I just didn't ask Jordan.. Well anywho the songs we're doing are (in order) "Leave Me Breathless", "No Time For Tacos", "This is Our Song", and " Love is a Lie With a Purpose"..  All of them are fun songs to listen to and are even better playing.. WellI just got done eating Thin Mint Cookies   and sucking down Kool-Aid Jammers 10 Cherry Edition ;D..   Ohk I really need toget some of math homework done so I don't FAIL.......

Is It weird that every time I think of magical rainbow unicorns I think of Steven?     xD 

FCAT Songwriting

so we're on the second day of FCAT's and for some reason Lexie told me to wear my SKSK shirt..  Idunno why but the way she was using exclamation points it sounded kinda.......Idunno.. Ohk so I'm gunna tell yew a story, an adventure, a........saga, Ohk so we we're testing in FCAT and I finished early so I started writing a song in the FCAT book, not the answer book, the book with the questions.. So during our 10 minute stretch break I asked the teacher if she could write it down on a piece f paper for me (cause your not aloud scratch paper).. She said  "No I can't because since it's in the book copying would be illegal, considered cheating, and will invalidate your test.".............. seriously...Ohk so what I did was I wrote it down on the desk.........with pencil.......?... Ohk, then I pulled out a pice of paper from my handy dandy notebook after the test and copied it on the paper.. Ya........ then I erased it off the desk..... So that's my amazing story &#9774 <3 [=

Well Now....

I haven't posted a blog in a long time.. Well here now I'm posting one.. An update of my life.. Well I have bad grades and really bad grades.. My mom is trying to get me to move over there to Orlando.. If I don't agree with her then she is going to get the courts involved.. My whole entire life is over here If it wasn't for my grades I would be having a perfect life.. I just got a new girlfriend and she is one of the most amazing girls ever =), I'm gaining a lot of friends like Theo, Steven, Ian, Skylar, Mersa, Kristen, and a lot of other cool people.. I just got my permit and we just got a new truck which will be mine when I turn 16.. Well if I can get my mom off my back then my life would be nearly perfect.. I wrote a new song called "Love is a Lie With a Purpose".. And my music life is getting really good..

For Whom it may concern

I've been kinda depressed lately and I don't know why.. Music is life to me.. And now that doesn't even seem interesting anymore.. I used o be able to play my guitar for hours and hours but know I play it for five minutes and it gets tiresome.. Nothing entertains me anymore!! I go outside for some fresh air and that doesn't amuse me.. I don't know whats wrong with me.. I'm depressed about something but I don't know what it is..

Another thing is freedom.. My dad keeps bitching at me about his saying that he loves to overuse which is "I give you an inch and you take a mile".. I know what it means but so what.. He lets me get my ear pierced and he gets mad at me for gaging to a 10.. A freaking 10!! most of you know how big a 10 is and it's not that big..

My dad keeps telling me that I'm turning into this demonic punk that's going to be homeless when I'm older.. He doesn't believe in my music when I know for a fact that I'm going to make it big.. Maybe if he gets off his ass and support me I might make it faster..

Another thing.. I want to dye my hair black.. My mom says that if I do it then It would disgracing God or something because I'm screwing with his creation.. When she dyes her hair all the time into black, brown, blond, red, and other colors that "look natural"..

I don't know why I'm so depressed but I don't like it
an I want to get out of it

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rolling on the fucking floor laughing my fucking ass off and I don't know what to do when the muffin bunnies come!! xD Ohk so its 7:00 in the morning and I'm at school I'm bored as hell.. I've started painting my nails black.. There's this really hot girl that has been coming to the media about the same time as me in the morning ha ha we've started talking but she's really shy.. =P well this was a short blog but i really need to do my math homework.................

Muffin Fuck!

Ohk is it me or does no one understand?! My parents think im turning demonic cause i wanna dye my hair black and my ears are gauge 10.. Ohk this is what pisses me off the most.. I guess i have some sort of problems.. I go to a guidance counselor and they tell me that I'm unhappy cause I don't have A's in school.. I've talked to everyone even my closest friends and they all say the same exact thing.. "I understand".. .................What the fuck are you talking about!!!!!! you don't understand at all.. I know for a fact that you don't understand because I don't even understand!!
My life is being overrun by politics, authority, religion, and the school system.. Everyone thinks I'm a freak because I wear black nail polish and skinny jeans.. I put all my emotions in my music hoping that someone will hear it and actually understand what going on.. but i put it out and people hear it and they completely misunderstand where it's coming from and what it means!!

I don't know what to do anymore.........I just want to fall down close my eyes and wish that when I open them that everything will be alright..

I finally meet a girl (over a three day weekend) that I like and I'm pretty sure she liked me too.. And she has to live in Canada......... Fucking Canada

Life hates me
It will bend me backwards
and screw me over
it has been for the past 10 years
and it will keep going
unless
I can
find
a way
to stop
it
=/



please tell me there is someone out there that understand why I'm here

Life Theory

I have this theory.. Life is fragile (but insensative) ball of thread and there is many things that can happen to thread..

Thing1:You screw up.. Now sometimes when you screw up you can fix it, but like a ball of thread you can never roll up the string the same way it was.. So really I'm saying that you can fix it but it will never be the same..

Thing 2:You screw up and can't fix it.. The metaphore for this would be that the thread itself (not the ball) has come unraveled.. WTF are you supposed to do?? Nothing.. You can't do anything.. And it sucks

Thing 3:You aren't pleased with the ball of thread (life) so you decide to cut it off somewhere with scissors (which is also called taking the easy way out {cheating}).. Congrats you just screwed up.. There is no way now how you can get back that part of thread you cut off.. Another way of saying this is for guys (if you cut off your testicals you can't have kids.. EVER!)

Thing4:Your tired of unraveling and raveling the thread ball.. So you just get so frustrated that you throw it down an endless pit (giving up on everything eg. life, and love).. It keeps unraveling no matter what you do you can't stop it (this is where your homeless a druggy and considered nothing to society)..

Thing5:You don't get why life is so empty and useless.. you wish people would understand where your coming from.. The truth is.......no one does and no one ever will.. This is the part of the ball of thread where you take a big stake and push it slowly and gently in the middle or hard and quickely in the middle.. (known as suicide)


Life sucks..

IT CAN AND WILL SCREW YOU OVER!!

so take it or leave it..

Music.

Music.. Pretty much my whole life is based around it.. Without it I probably wouldn't be here, because nothing would keep me entertained from the boring isolation of school, which then would result with me killing my self for entertainment or having sex left and right with random people I've never met o.O.......... which would lead to constant STD's (or STI's whatever the freaking CDC calls them) which would also result in death.......... So ya I love music.. Okay I love ranting on about random stuff but seeing this is a blog about music I'm going to state the pro's and con's of it..

Some music is good and I could hear it over and over again.. The only problem is after you hear it for so long you begin to think that it's kind of stupid.. Some music is god and some is bad.. Generally it's an opinion but I don't care.. I've never taken a good liking for rap, hip-hop, R&B, and all the other music like that.. No offense to my "Home G's" out there but I don't like listening to wannabe singer put a beat into a monotone story..

Okay.. Next I'm going to rant on bout the apparel that come with music.. Clothing is optional!! No where does it say that if you like Bob Marley then you have to have dreads or if you like Hawthorne Hights then you have to wear skinny jeans with converse.. Now if you want people to know who you like and what music your into then you can dress accordingly but it's not required..

Well I'm going to go get ready for school
PEACe


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